feeling so low

ugh. i dont even feel like posting right now. i really admire people like TheAmazingAthiest and Gotham Hipster because they post things everyday and they get so many views its uncanny. well as you can see in the title, this months post (right now im doing this monthly because im am really busy, but im working to get this weekly) becoming socially awkward, finding meaning in songs and more. i would like to start of by writing part of the lyrics to the songs "im open" by pearl jam and "sir splendid" by SquareCircle:

Pearl Jam:
a man lies on his bed in a room with no door
he waits hoping for a present something that he'd think would enter
after spending half his life searching, he still felt as blank as the ceiling at which he stared.
he is alive, but feels absolutely nothing. so is he?

and now SquareCircle:
he's here, by himself, all alone.
he didnt think he'd end up here but he did, all alone.
he shouldent take it so hard
'cause he stepped on those who were there, and they tried, but he didn't care
and he took everything for himself
believing music would make him free. what does it mean to be free?

as you can see, both songs are slighly depressing, yet extreemly meaningful. both are about a man, both are about someone beeing shunned from society, and both are about trying so hard to find purpose and meaning in their somewhat insignificant lifes. you see, significance is relative, as is time and motion. in my beliefes, the universe was a result of two very small particles smashing together, thus creating a seemingly "infinitly expending" universe. if you compare the small thins that happen on our small planet to some of the things that happen out there, then you would probably just bask in its glory for a few moments. therefore i conclude todays post

completly off topic:
some wonder why i call this blog "a day in life" because i dont ever talk about what happened in one day, but rather an idea i get on a given day, and use the rest of the week, or month to develope it. there you go!